fly with mhe

A pencil maker told the pencils 5 important lessons:

1st  -  everything you do will always leave a mark;

2nd  -  you can always correct the mistakes you make;

3rd  -  what is important is what is inside you;

4th  -  in life, you will undergo painful sharpening which will make you a better pencil; and

5th  -  to be the best pencil you can be, you must allow yourself to be held and guided by the Hand that holds you.

True, so true.. Not only to the pencils, but for us as well.  =)

Hahayz.. Y’know what, I still have financial reports to do and submit, teaching aids to make, articles to read and here I am watching episodes of the CSI:NY and CSI:Las Vegas which my good bro downloaded. I still lack sleep and my body still craves for some rest. Hahayz.. Wanna join?

This happened last Sunday yet it still didn’t fail to gave me a smile. Just a little act that could be judge as just fancy little thing. But for me, it was already a feat and a stepping stone for some more of those someday, hopefully. It may be a very small and unimportant act for some, but for me, it was by far the best for my week.

You see, when I first met him over a year now, he was still very silent guy in the corner. Only nods his head, shrugs his shoulders and looks at me as a reply to my statement. Seldom speaks a word and when he does the few words can be counted out with the fingers. Though he is dependable with the guitars and drums as well, as they are. Through time, he would talk to me, exchange thoughts we didn’t do before, ask me questions, open up, even go with me for walks at times with others. And I started to hear his voice over the microphone as well during practices, when before, no voice could be heard over the speaker when he’s given the microphone. And last Sunday, he sang over the microphone while strumming the guitar in a crowd of almost 20. He’s a self-proclaimed shy guy, and he really is. Wheeew!! It may just be a passing fancy for others, but not for me. Being a witness to who he is right now, who he has become and what characteristics he possess. I wouldn’t be surprise if he has more talents up his sleeve that I didn’t know of yet. As for now, I’m happy with what he has become and hope he’ll keep on, continue on with his journey, for the better.

Ever experienced being in an uncomfortable situation?

Last week, had an assignment to lead a crowd of about 200 in singing. Though I may be a singing enthusiast but being in front of the crowd and had to say some lines really makes me nervous. I may stumble upon some words and it may sound inaudible. Or worse, no words would come out of my mouth. I would want to stay in the corner and hide. But could not do so and had to face the challenge. It was indeed another experience for me that really needs a lot of my courage and support from others as well.

I am very grateful indeed with my team. We had made it through. Encouraging each other. Supporting one another. Even a single, simple pat on our shoulders helped lighten up our anxiety and nervousness. Its a different feeling when you’re not comfortable with the situation and the crowd (its definitely a big crowd). Though they were as nervous as I was yet they still pushed on.  We had practiced our songs weeks before and had memorized it by heart, it cannot be denied that we were still nervous and lacked confidence. If we could only run and hide, we could have done so. Oh well..

It was not only last week that they proved their worth but countless times already in different occassions and circumstances. They never failed to watch my back and give me support. Kudos to these guys. I’m proud of you.

By the way, they’re also my bass guitar mentors. Woohoo.. 

Just got home from music practice. I was glad Macky was there and is feeling well again. He texted me out of the blue late afternoon yesterday informing that he had fever. I went to their place last night but he was already fast asleep, clad in jogging pants and sweatshirt, and wrapped in a blanket. So didn’t got the chance to talk to him.

This afternoon, he excitedly texted that he was already well. When I saw him playing the bass guitar while jiving with the music tonight, I was thankful that he was back to his old self again.

Macky is only 17 years old yet he inspires me endlessly. By doing what he knew he SHOULD do, he pushes me to do the same thing I had promised myself to do. I might get tired and feel down at times, yet he always gives me fresh air and rejuvenates my spirit. He also has his perks, like he doesn’t have enough courage to face a large crowd (like me) yet he overcame it and shared to them what he had and is able to. Looking at him, he may not be the person you expect him to be. But Macky has a willing heart for service, more knowledge and deeper understanding.

He is only 17, yet he inspires people older than him. He inspires me.